So...Wow

Man comes out of the barber shop and says..."well, would you vote for him?"
-I dont see why not.

Never say Never....

So...Chloe drags us to see a hypnotist at the Funny Bone. I obviously post up in my usual fashion and order a bucket of ultra. As my speculation and judgment begins, the guy starts cracking jokes…pretty soon, I am having fun, and before I know it he is calling up audience members to volunteer to “go under.” Well, obviously I am NOT going up there because I think this is all crap. He starts telling them how to breath and relax…in this monotone professor type voice and before I know it, I wake up to Chloe laughing because I have apparently fallen asleep sitting up and banged my head on the table. So, whether legit or Jedi mind tricks…I am NEVER going to see a hypnotist again.

Anthony Hamilton says it best...

We don’t have to worry bout no money to have us a real good time

And we don’t have to leave in the morning the whole day just you and I
And it don’t have to get any better it's perfect you in my life
If you're cool, then I'm cool then we're cool

We don’t have to worry bout no groceries we can fill up on love alone
If we aint got enough for a movie we can just sit at home
Have a lil role play baby wat ever turns you on

If you're cool, then I'm cool and we're cool
If you're cool, then I'm cool then we're cool

Quit your worrying baby (oh, oh, oh)
Quit your worrying girl (you don’t have to worry no more)
Quit your crying lady (gone head and cry)
We can conquer the world.

Pack a lil lunch for the evening
Let me hold you tight
Don’t be worried bout no problems believe me
Everything's gonna be alright

We can shoot for the moon watch some cartoons
Whatever makes you smile
If you're cool, then I'm cool then we're cool
If you're cool, then I'm cool then we're cool
Quit your worrying baby (oh u can 4 get about the prob now)

Quit your worrying girl
Quit your crying lady
We can conquer the world
Don’t worry girl don’t worry girl don’t worry oh you ant neva got 2 worry bout a thing baby
Oh no
Were all right (were all right) hold on hold on
Don’t worry
Ohh forget about the probs in the past
Don’t let em cry u out baby
We can conquer the world we can conquer the world

How's this for a resolution?

Prepare yourself.
Perhaps not a total abandonment...but I am going to try and exercise the boundaries of my vocabulary so that I might effectively remove the crutch of too often used four letter words. Sigh. (just typing it was difficult)

My reflection for the day

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frighten us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It is not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people the will to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

This Morning

This morning I realized that I don't just "feel" trapped-I AM trapped. I need a change and I can't find one. The decisions that I make will not have any effect on on my entrapment. I made my list and even drank three "real" cokes...I went to the library and had a great dinner. And still, I dreamt about being trapped.I am a happy person, I have tons of friends, I am intellegent and talented and not too terrible to look at-and yet I still can't muster a smile this morning.

Today is for me.

I have just spent an entire weekend devoted to everyone else.
Today is for me.
Today I will buy a desk and a new kitchen trash can.
I will de-clutter my desk and make a neat list.
Today I will order books for class.
Today I will ignore the things that make me unhappy.
I will drink a real coke and not think twice.
I will Silence calls that I am not in the mood to take.
I will answer the phone smiling.
I will floss, do pilates and repaint my toenails.
I will make a "house to do list" instead of losing sleep over unorganized thoughts.
I will stop taking other people's actions personally and accept that they, more than likely, will not change.
I will go to bed before midnight.

Where I’m from

I am from bare feet, from fresh sheets and mason jars.
I am from the treadle sewing machine, wood floors, tire swing, and railroad tracks.
I am from the plum tree, spider lilies, the honey suckles and fishing ponds.
I am from back yard fires and pocket knives, from Milam and Grimes; Polizo and Hendrick.
I am from over communication, compulsive cleaning and a love of music.
From mosquito bites, no shoes in the house and glass coke bottles.
I am from Baptist, Pentecostal, Catholic and “believe what you want.”
I am from Natchez and lightning bugs, drop biscuits, tomato gravy, and vegetable soup.
From the red wagon, barbwire fences, slip and slide, and sacks of pecans.
I am from the family album, rusted swing set, Bambie’s tea cups and summers in Greenville.
From cleaning cast iron skillets and picking my own switches.
I am from the sweet olive tree and magnolia leaves.
From questioning and learning to trust.
I am from my father’s confidence and the face of my mother.