This Morning

This morning I realized that I don't just "feel" trapped-I AM trapped. I need a change and I can't find one. The decisions that I make will not have any effect on on my entrapment. I made my list and even drank three "real" cokes...I went to the library and had a great dinner. And still, I dreamt about being trapped.I am a happy person, I have tons of friends, I am intellegent and talented and not too terrible to look at-and yet I still can't muster a smile this morning.