Is it because they love me? Is it because I’m tough, weak…or intimidating? Lately the scales have fallen from my eyes, the wool is at my feet and I can see a little clearer.
I am easy to lie to.
I pride myself in my intuition and it takes a great deal of “follow through” for me to really trust someone. Yet lately I have found myself surrounded by little white lies.
I’ll never do it again. I will help you. I will call. We are just friends. I was just working. I forgot. I am listening. I do care; I just didn’t think you wanted to talk about it. I never meant to hurt you. I am done sowing my wild oats. I will pay you back soon. Rent…is it the first? Just call, sure I’m down for whatever. I would love to have a girl’s night out. I was asleep. You are over qualified and should find something else. I didn’t drive drunk-he did. No, I’m really happy. It was only because I was working. Everything will be fine. I will start to communicate. That dress looks great on you, don’t change. We will bring the family and come visit. I will never lie to you again.
I am surrounded with people who love me. Overwhelmed with requests to hang out, have lunch, just talk…and yet I still hang on to the ones that hurt me.
Really? Unfortunately my filter has worn down and I can take it no longer. I cannot physically handle one more lie whether it be “white,” accidental or blatant. Today was the last time that I will allow myself to be lied to.
