I have made mistakes. I hate to sound “condescending” but sometimes I just don’t understand how the decisions that some people make-made good sense in their head at the time. People are are often so much more than how they act. I think men should concentrate on having the back bone to live how they know is right. Then people around them, especially women, will respect them and hopefully, their stand will shed light on others shortcomings and bring them to raise their own standards.
I have really tried to work on things myself. Women are terrible at telling guys no-In the past I was way too nice and felt sorry for them-now im a beast-they wont even come towards me because I now have a pretty solid reputation that im not an idiot and when a guy is brave enough to talk to me I respond immediately with “ I admire your confidence in approaching me, im not interested in meeting anyone-it doesn't matter if I am single, but thank you for approaching me respectfully-(if they did in which case if they didn’t im more of a bitch).
I have had to work hard to learn to say im sorry, and I honestly feel like I have apologized immediately whenever I have felt that I have been wrong for the prodominate part of the last year.
I used to “be cool” and act like things didn’t bother me-leading only to an uprising down the road...or my ever-famous profession that there is “nothing wrong” and I am POSITIVE we can both agree that there certainly was.
I know the grass is not greener, no one really feels that sorry for me so i shouldn't feel sorry for myself and as far as the things in my life that are “NOT” okay-I'm changing them too. Its not okay for me to turn my head when something is going on that is not right.
Its not okay for me to be late for work so I've started getting up earlier, having half the drinks I used to if I go out and have begun letting the “dirty laundry” sit if my sleep is more important.
Its not okay for me to make fun of people-and I don't remember the last time that I did.
Its not okay to judge peoples actions-I just let it be known that I disagree and I cease 100 percent participation if the night goes in a direction that I don’t agree with.
I know that I have grown a lot this year and finally, for the first time in my life, started to trust people.
I want to marry a man that I trust. I need to know that I am the only person on the planet that they will ever want…for their sake as well.
Its not just that I need to feel secure about how they feel about me.
I never ever want to feel trapped in a marriage, or have to go through a divorce.
I have abandoned really great guys-it never hurt me.
I fear that I will fall for a man to whom I am not exactly what they want and i don't want to be someone's "good enough" or "settle."
I don’t want to date around-I want to date the person I want to marry and commit myself to them-for good and bad-through fat times and mid life crisis-and if they can imagine a chance that some beautiful woman could whisp them away-I would suggest a slow down in their pursuit.
I want a man who actively works on being the best person that he can be.
I don’t ever want to stop examining myself either.
I want to marry someone who admires me and adores me and appreciates who I am becoming.
I know I will annoy them and they will annoy me.
I want to be with someone that exudes love for me.
I want to be on the same page.
I want a man to take me to church, appreciate my cooking and run my bath water.
I don’t want to think the search has ended if in reality one of us still feels like we are taking a chance.
My commitment phobia I justify with with the excuse that I am tired with work and school, but I think it’s a bad excuse.
